Deep Quotes and drabbles

  Sometimes you think that you just want to disappear but all you really want is to be found. oof... Honestly this right here is one of those quotes that helps you get to know yourself better, that makes you realize things about yourself you didn't know before. No one around me truly understands me or has an interest in trying to because of that I thought being alone was my safe haven but honestly deep down a part of me doesn't want to admit that having just one person who understands me for me is something I crave but fear I will never have which is why I hide myself away and don't even try to look for it.

  I am the monster you created... Many people have opinions on who you are and how you are, but they never ask why. Why I developed certain defense mechanisms, Why I prefer being alone and ignore the world. Why I have no more fucks to give. But the drama got boring so did forgiveness, you will be blamed for leaving toxicity behind, but they will never recognize the scars they left behind the pieces of you that they killed all because they were hate filled.    NO, I didn't forget I adapted to survive but now I'm free from those environments and nobody understands why. They judge the way I am when they could never truly understand if I let you see the monster they made me you would pray to God for mercy the same way I did on my knees so mind your business and just let me live.

the most rebellious thing you can do right now is feel joy in the middle of the chaos. This quote made me sit in silence... The truth behind it made me see things clearly. I was always looked at differently by family those I called friend's strangers I wouldn't look at twice all because the light behind my eyes, Because I wasn't scared to shine no matter the circumstances I was in. I was judged for being "too laid back" but I realized it was never that I didn't take things seriously it was them wanting me to be miserable with them. They couldn't stand to see me happy or smiling when the chaos managed to kill them inside leaving them questioning themselves as much as reality. Watching me smile in that state only added to their heartbreak, Afterall misery likes company, but joy can dance alone.